Thanksgiving used to be my very favoritist holiday. It was all about family and we would have these huge dinners with so many people and everyone would be cracking jokes and having the best time. Then I grew up and everyone moved away and oh well things just aren't the same anymore.
Two years ago was the last time I tried going home to Pittsburgh to have turkey with the extended family. It was pretty traumatic. Oh, I really loved seeing the family, especially my sister's little kids. But holiday travel always messes me up, and I got really sick and I came home and was a total wreck for weeks. I ended up with bronchitis and well it just wasn't pretty. So I swore off holiday travel. Seemed like a good idea at the time.
Last year salacious_pop
invited me to Thanksgiving dinner at a friend's house, and then had the bad timing not to show up himself. So I had dinner with a few people I'd vaguely known for a while and a bunch of strangers. I did meet kuteluvr
there and ended up having him move in as the roommate du jour for a brief while, so it wasn't a total wash, but it was not too fun feeling like an oddball at a holiday dinner.
This year I thought I'd be in LA with my dad. But his wife had a bit of a falling out with her kids so they decided to go to Hawaii instead. So I have no family within 3 time zones. I thought about cooking dinner here, but all my friends seem to be either traveling or otherwise committed. I haven't gotten an invite anywhere either. I may end up just cooking a chicken for myself and navyboy and watching a bunch of dvds. But I have to say, I'm really not happy about this.
I've never been "popular" or the type that getting invited to do things. I always have to do the legwork myself, or I'd almost never do anything. Do I have a big sign on my forehead that says "IGNORE ME" or something? Usually I can deal with it and just resign myself to always being the one who has to make the call. But fuck it, I'm not going to call everyone I know and see if anyone has room at their Thanksgiving table for me. For once, I'd like to feel like someone thought enough of me to invite me without prompting.